I definitely have gone through periods of many near-deaths. I think the assumption that all life is apex-driven toward violence, that there can be only one victor, that even in the world of atomic elements, iron means death for stars-- this is a false assumption. We are meant to find a way to exist long after everything as we know it ends, the conditions which have made our existence possible are so statistically rare, you know? Like for life to occur on this planet in how it has occurred - it's such a slight chance. I want to honor that slightest chance. We must get beyond what would try to contain us.